Our greatest adventure yet

Ah, how things can change in just one year!

This time last year, Ben had just graduated from AFIT, he was starting a new job, friends were moving, I had recently started my job at the library – and I thought we were going through lots of life changes!

Little did I know, one year later, I’d be 20 weeks pregnant with our first child. 

My goodness, we are beyond happy for this gigantic life change. Ben and I remark about 50 times a day how lucky we are, how amazing this already is, and how this is such a wildly exciting time in our lives. Every tiny kick I feel is just unreal. We were grinning like idiots during the entire anatomy ultrasound we had last week – seeing that healthy, wiggly babe on the screen made my heart swell with happiness.

I’ve been lucky to have a relatively smooth pregnancy so far. I got away with very little morning sickness in the first trimester, and am suuuuper happy to have some of my energy back in the second trimester so far!

The most ridiculous of the photos from the announcement, haha

I wasn’t quite prepared for the intense anxiety that goes along with all of the unknowns of the first trimester, though. Gosh, while it is such an exciting time, it can be so darn scary at the same time. I had plenty of moments where my fear completely overtook my excitement; where nothing but the passing of time could help. My blood pressure & HR at doctor’s appointments were SO HIGH – then every time I got to hear the heart beat, it went back down to normal. {The nurse literally asked if I felt like I was having a heart attack once because my heart rate was almost as high as baby’s. Oops.}

I totally wanted to be one of those put-together ladies that took the weekly bump photos, wrote out long & detailed weekly updates, etc. etc. But something kept holding me back. We announced the pregnancy on social media right around 12 weeks, which is a little early, and then the next day, had a scare that sent us to the ER, thinking it was all over. After that, as silly as it sounds, I felt like I was going to jinx something by sharing too much and putting too much hope into one teeny tiny fetus. But now that most of that fear is gone, I want to write more so that I have something wonderful to look back on as years go by! This is a giant “first” in our lives and I want to remember every second of it.

Thanks for reading! ~Margaret

(Photo credit for the announcement to the wonderful Courtney Nelson Photography, a fellow military spouse!)